Thursday, December 23, 2010

"Oh Dad...I'm Sorry"

"I want that shirt!" I yelled at him.
"Be patient my dear son. I shall buy that shirt for you. But, now it's not the time yet." He replied politely just to make sure that i would not get angry with him.
"Why must i be your son?!" I continued scolding him and that ended the conversation.
     The name given by my mother was Ethan. she died while delivering me. I never saw her. After that, i was taken cared off by my father, Mr Authour. I seriously regretted the fact that i was born into this family. The family of nothing. The family that was extremely poor. I could even see the light-blue sky, the bright moon and the shining stars without opening the cracked windows. I lived in an old, wooden house waiting the time to collapse. It was full of holes with different sizes and shapes, sometimes i can see faces if i stared really hard. you could not have imagine how easy it was for the rain drops to enter my house. For me, my father never took good care of me. All my requests were never fulfilled.

     Living in that stupid house with such an irresponsible dad was such a headache. But, that was not the worst.  The worst of all was during the first day of school, during introduction, other colleagues were talking about backgrounds, hobbies and favorite things joyously,but i chose to sit at the back of the class. i skipped the most dragging and most humiliating moments in my life. i literally have NOTHING to share. When asked, i said that i was adopted by an unknown person who don't know the meaning of responsibility. But, something had happened and that had changed my relationship with my father. This was how it started.


     It was a gloomy day. The sun did not shine as usual and seemed to be shy of its rays. The cloud seen dancing in the sky was a sign of upcoming rain. I woke up and opened the dirty windows of mine. The birds did not chirp, the chickens were sleeping soundly in the coop. It was so silent that morning. 
"Tuk! Tuk!"
     I heard the sound of my window being knocked. I looked down and it was Joe throwing medium size stones at my cracked windows. had him used a bigger stones, he would be able to tear some down. He was my neighbor, a timid, chubby yet a very boastful person. But, he lived in a huge house made by diamonds and golds. It was a castle of honey and milk for me. It was my dream house.
"What do you want?" I asked him.
" Come down now. I want to show you something." He replied in a hurry. 
     I tip-toed to the kitchen and saw the wooden door. I was trying to escape from this hell. Actually I was forbidden to go out and I needed to help my father with his job. My step were very light and smooth, not to break the a pin-dropped silent. I grabbed the rusted steel knob and turned it to the right. Out the door i was, running as fast as I could after successfully opened the door. It was so fast even Usain Bolt was not a match for me. I could feel my heart rate increasing.
     After a few yards of running, hyperventilating, I tried to slow down and walk to Joe's house. When I reached there, Joe was sitting on the bench on his corridor waiting for me. 
"Come in please." he invited me in.
     I was shocked to see his beautiful house for only from few  inches away from my eyes. My hand involuntarily touched the wall and my tears began to flow. I was thankful to god for giving me this opportunity to come here for the first time although i had been a friend of Joe since kindergarten. 


     He brought me to his room. It was much different than mine. After a few seconds in my euphoric delusion, he surprised me by showing his new lap-top.
"What! Another computer?!" I asked curiously.
"Yes. For his beloved son. What about you?"
     I hung my head down and started to think what a stupid decision it was to come here and be humiliated like this. With little energy to spare, I just smiled and shaked  as a sign that I did not have one of that modern technology.
"You should try mine." He invited me politely.
"Okay!Okay!"
     I took the computer and opened it with excitement.
"Boom"
     The computer blew up. Now, it was true that curiosity kills the cat. I was very scared. My whole body was shaking uncontrollably producing a cold sweat. My adrenaline rushed into the blood stream preparing for 'fight or flight' situation. I did know what to do. I had no money to pay for that expensive gadget. I just realized that he was tricking me, so dumb and so late to notice.
"Hahaha!" He laughed proudly.
"But...But...I don't have money." I replied while sobbing. It was a trap and I jumped right into it. Congratulation!
"Go and asked your father. Lie or die!" He ordered me while pointing to the way out from his room and straight to the opened well-crafted wooden main door.
     I was out from that horrible place, a fake paradise and marched to my house. I saw my father working. I ran to him, smiling and started to help him with his job. A few hours later, after all our works finished, I asked him to give me some money. I told him that I wanted to buy books. He was shocked after listening to my request. I never asked for books before and I never scored in any of my examinations. He looked at me suspicously, eye to eye, man to man.
"Son...I can't give you now." He told me.
"Why?" My tone was starting to rise.
"because...You can't borrow it from the library. Can't you?" he talked to me back with a slow voice.
"What kind of father are you?! I want to buy books for the sake of my study! But, you won't help me!" I finally yelled at him.
"I'm so sorry my dear."
"Argh!!! What an irresponsible father I have and why must mum die so early living me with YOU!"
     I climbed the staircase and entered my room. I slammed the door to show my anger, the whole house shook.


     The sun had switched his duty with the moon. I slept early tonight. i slept soundly. It was so cold due to the heavy downpour. But, in the noisy environment, i could barely hear a sound of someone crying. I walked as stealth as i could. Then, I peeked through a hole in my father's wall. I saw him sitting on the wooden floor and crying alone. I could not hear the words he spoke but i could see his mouth was saying something. But,one thing for sure, his tears were falling like Niagara waterfalls. Involuntarily, I could sense a warm colorless liquid flowing on both cheeks. Since then, I became nicer to him. A few weeks later, I told him what had happened on that day and he smiled. He said that he already paid back the computer that I had broken on the day after with the money he had saved. He said that he was proud me for telling the truth. we hugged each other. This incident had woke me up from a slumber of ungratefulness into a new perspective, seeing a new horizon, it made me happy to say the least that I had the most handsome, responsible and loving father. I loved him very much, to the moon and back. I started to follow his advises because I knew that he knows what was the best for me. Now, I'm a successful man yet a very kind-hearted person. It is all about obeying my father. Back then, I realized that it was a huge misunderstanding, I was glad we worked it out.






thank you for reading=)

Monday, December 20, 2010

look what is happening now!!!

hello everyone,
like i promised now i would like to share with you something that will make you shocked. it was about people killing whales and dolphin in a BIG SCALE! whales and dolphin were species that had been harmed by homo sapiens for a long time. back then since the sail boat had been created. when people started to know how to sail. i would like to share with you some information regarding to this issues:



  • The blue whales of the Antarctic are at less than 1 percent of their original abundance, despite 40 years of complete protection. Some populations of whales are recovering but some are not.
  • Only one population, the East Pacific grey whale, is thought to have recovered to its original abundance, but the closely related West Pacific grey whale population is the most endangered in the world. It hovers on the edge of extinction with just over 100 remaining.
  • Recent DNA evidence shows that the impact of commercial whaling may be even worse than previously thought. Most estimates of historic whale population size have been extrapolated from old whaling figures, but this method is often very inaccurate, according to marine biologist Steve Palumbi of Stanford University's Hopkins Marine Station in California, USA.
  • In 2003 Palumbi and his colleagues used DNA samples to estimate that humpback whales could have numbered 1.5 million prior to the onset of commercial whaling in the 1800s.
  • That number dwarfs the figure of 100,000 previously accepted by the IWC based on 19th century whaling records. Humpback whales currently number only 20,000.
  • Japanese delegates to the International Whaling Commission (IWC) constantly refer to a 1990 estimate of the Antarctic minke population of 760,000. But that figure was withdrawn by the IWC in 2000 because recent surveys found far fewer minkes than the older ones.
look how serious this case is. pictures below are showing the life of whales and dolphins before they being harmed:

 



but, this what human do to them...so horrible=(






are we happy? not enough? read this:

  • Each year over 20,000 dolphins are stabbed to death in the coastal waters of Japan. Most of the Japanese people don't even know this happens. However, the meat is often put into school lunch programs and contains extremely high levels of mercury, DDT and other toxins that are also poisoning tens of thousands of school children. The dolphins are full of these toxins since they live in coastal areas of places with a lot of industry, sewer drainage (it always goes to the ocean) and chemical runoff.


that is all i had to say. thank you.





a story of a little boy

hello everyone,
my name is safwan...i was born on 5th of january...my mother is madame Reba'ayah and my father is monsieur Mustafa Kamal...i have 7 siblings...the oldest was still studying in france...the youngest was only 10 years old...in year 2005 i had passed UPSR with flying colours...and i had the invitation to join my beloved Malay College Kuala Kangsar or Koleq...i agreed and went there to start my life as budak koleq...F1 was like hell...with all the standing rules and orders by the seniors...i got 8As for my PMR..and continued my study there...i was official 0610's members or famous known as SIXTEN!...but, five years was extremely short...it was like a blink of an eye...i just finished my SPM and hoping to get straight As...now, i'm an oldboys...enjoying my life and preparing to be a matured adult who is responsible and caring about others=)

through out my five years in koleq, i found good friends namely:

  • shahir shukor
  • halim hassan
  • mus'ab manan
  • zuhairi tajuddin
  • musadiq adam
  • fauzan mohamad
  • nur haqim yazid
  • syakir aiman
  • nail farhan
  • ihsan daud
  • izzat rahman
  • aris nazman
  • amar amsyar
  • affwan
  • danish yusuf
  • syafiq sallehin
  • nasa ahmad
  • * a lot more
people said that pictures tell thousand tales...so, enjoy the pictures

my beloved dad and mum

my big family
me and mr shahir

me and mr halim

me and mr syakir

me and mr ihsan


me and mr danish
me and my friends at dinner
back: halim, zuhairi and me
in front: pojan, abby and nail

me and a line of my friends
from left: syakir,zuhairi,khidir,nail,mus'ab,me,ada,amar and halim

at genting
from left: zuhairi,nail, me and halim

at pizza hut
from left: me,zaki,shahir,amar and adlan

me and mr ihsan daud

me and my happy labmates
from left: nail, zuhairi, me, syafiq and danish
at graduation day with housemates
from left: ajim, faheem, musab, zaki, putera, abby, menol, me, shahir and yop

my beloved vsctwo with ms shafiza

my champion house: mohd shah (aum!!3x) 
my small family of debaters
from left: mas, zuhairi, adam, huzaimi, mia, shahir, me, pojan ,halim



i also got a chance to know a very intellectual people in the world like Mr Rafizi, Mr Izzat, Mr Aleng, Mr Adli,Mr Aslam, Mr nabil and other coaches...i love them very much=)


thank you

a new beginning and a fresh start

hello everyone...this is me safwan...people called me popo...ha3...what a name right...this is my first time blogging...i hope that all the readers will enjoy reading my blog...most of my posts will be touching about the environment..but...i will also write about my life and share with you a lot of things...please be happy and be my folllower...=)